Saturday will be two months since the little cerebrovascular accident, and I'm trying to figure out what to do to honor the goddamned thing. I mean, it's the least I can do, given the mark it's made.
My thinking right now is to do what I like to do: watch movies on Friday night and go for a walk — you know, a little Stroke Eve celebration. I've seen some of the best/worst films this way, and really, if I'm going to commemorate what happened and what's happened since, I should be able to do what I want.
I'm thinking Netflix and Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. It's one of the 10 or so films I'd take along if I knew I was going to be stuck on an island for the rest of my days. I usually can't stand Jim Carrey and his rubber face, but there's something about this movie — the idea of going through loss to understand what you had — that rings like a bell in my chest. Every time I watch it I come away with something new, and isn't that what great art is all about?
From there I think I'll go on to Stay, and then maybe Howl's Moving Castle. As I said, if I'm going to watch movies, I want to like them and think about them. And cripes, no offense, but after the past couple months I think I've earned a little slice of selfishness, a night to call my own.
What else should I watch?